I Wonder

I used to wonder…

How do lovers end up becoming haters?

How do people who were at the center of your life end up becoming strangers?

How do close knit friends end up becoming mere acquaintances?

I wonder, what happens to all those feelings, shared experiences and memories?

I’ve experienced all of the above, and still have no answers.

But I guess it’s the same way that a stranger can become your closest confidante.

A casual friendship can become your strongest and most enduring relationship .

A chance encounter can mean you meet your soul mate.

An instant connection can be felt with a person you just met.

I wonder at the magic of human interactions.

Bad

Is there such a thing as a bad person? Like, really bad – movie villain bad, irredeemably bad.

Or are there people who have just made bad decisions? People like you and me.

I was watching this show on Netflix called “No Good Nick”, and the main character is a con artist who does some truly questionable things. Yet, the people who are supposed to be “good” have also made some questionable choices.

In fact, you could say that their actions drove the main character to do what she does.

Good people can make bad decisions, can hurt others, can become someone they didn’t think they could be.

But it’s how we move forward that defines us.

Food for thought.

Do you ever?

Do you ever feel useless?

Do you ever feel like you’re not good enough, smart enough, pretty enough?

Do you ever feel the anxiety building and building inside of you, like it’s going to drown you?

Do you ever wish that you could win a lotto windfall overnight, so you can quit your job and never worry about money again?

Do you ever think that money will make you happy?

Do you ever feel that there is more to life than money?

That happiness and well-being is more important?

Do you ever wish that societal expectations would reflect this?

I do.

Breathe, Just Breathe

2020… I think most of us would agree that this year has been challenging to say the least. Because, hello? Global pandemic in the form of Covid 19.

It’s been scary, not knowing what is going to happen, not knowing if we, or our loved ones, are going to be affected.

It’s been frustrating, not being able to visit our friends and family. Not having the freedom to move around as we want.

It’s been lonely, not having the face to face social interactions that we as humans crave.

It’s been hopeful, seeing some countries begin to recover.

It’s been enlightening, being forced to slow down in a world that moves at a lightning pace, and actually think.

It’s been a revelation, that the things that we took for granted in the past, some of the most simple pleasures, like giving someone a hug, or spending time with family and friends, or taking a walk around the block, are the things that matter most in life.

It’s been a rollercoaster, as we jump from one emotion to another, as some days things seem to get better, and then other days it seems to go backwards.

But, friends, take a deep breath in. Let it out. And repeat.

This is but a moment in our lives, an experience that will shape us for the better or worse.

Breathe. In. And out. Repeat.

Take this time to be present in the moment.

Because this too shall pass.

Sae xo

 

Beauty

Lately I’ve been feeling pretty down and self-conscious about my looks. That’s what happens when you work in an industry where appearance is pretty much key (no it is not the modelling industry – actually it’s a bar). During my time there, I’ve noticed a couple of things, which although existed on my peripheral awareness previously, has never been more emphasised.

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