Long time no blog – partly because I’ve been crazy busy with a new job (!!) and uni recently, but mostly because I haven’t felt the urge to write. Tonight though, I talked to someone who is going to have a birthday soon. No big deal, but she seemed down, so I asked her what was wrong.
She replied “I’m not where I thought I’d be at this age…”
This got me thinking. Am I where I want to be at the age of 21? Yes, and no. I’m at uni, I have a job, and I’ve travelled. But at the same time, I feel like I haven’t had all the experiences I thought I’d have, or really expanded my social circle beyond that of the one I had in high school. This isn’t necessarily a bad thing, but for someone who knows that she needs to grow socially and be able to connect with others, this feels like a massive failure on my part. That’s why, I have decided to write a list of the things I want to do by the time I’m going to do by the age of 22. Just to put it in writing, and maybe so that the cosmic universe will see this and make spooky things happen – a girl can dream 😉 .
So, here goes:
1. Find a boyfriend – Ok, seems lame (“I don’t need a man to make me feel good, to make me feel complete”…!) BUT speaking as a 21 year never-been-kissed-virgin … let’s just say this is an experience I want to have before i’m old and wrinkled.
2. Complete a book – Heeeeell to the yeah! Becoming an author is something that’s always been at the back of my mind, but dismissed because it didn’t seem like a feasible career path. The thing which I am realising more and more these days though, especially as I come closer to graduating, is that it’s important to BE HAPPY and do WHAT I LOVE. Of course, gonna keep my day job, because money makes the world go round.
3. Love myself – I think a major part of why I’m so awkward around people is because I think they are judging me by how i look, and I automatically think that they are going to reject me, so I reject them first (by not talking). So, I’m going to look in the mirror and say one thing I like about myself. I’m going to fake confidence. I’m going to find my personality and let it freaking shine! This is probably the hardest of the three goals, but something which I need to do.
Wish me luck, I’ll (try) keep you updated on the progress.
ps. excuse any typos, writing without glasses on is difficult 😛
21. Just to put it out there