Relationships are hard. Initiating, maintaining … It’s just hard. The thing about relationships – whether it be family, friends, lovers, enemies – is that as well as being hard, they are also transient. Someone who may be you bestest, closest confidante in high school may become someone who is a stranger to you in university.
Knowing all this, sometimes I wonder if relationships are worth all the effort and emotion which is invested in them. Like, what is the point if the relationship only lasts for a certain amount of time?
The thing is though, even a temporary relationship is better than no relationship. It’s better than feeling lonely and isolated, and provides a certain sense of social security. So we keep trying to connect to others.
It’s funny, but I’ve only just realised how important feeling this sense of belonging to a group (friends, family, etc) is after graduating highschool. In high school relationships were taken for granted – at least by me – because they formed with people as a result of the sheer amount of time you are forced to spend in other peoples presence. After high school, you no longer have that luxury and any relationship initiated is a result of the effort you put in.
This is particularly hard for someone like me who finds it very difficult to open up to people, thereby making it hard for people to get to know me and for me to get to know people. This is something I’m working on currently , and it’s been an emotional roller coaster to be honest. Sometimes I feel like I’m able to make great connections with others, bantering, laughing and joking. Other times I feel like I’ve taken a step back, and feel excluded and unliked.
But I am growing, and going to keep tying 🙂 All about attitude , people!